A Depression episode is NOT fun.
We are unable to do things, and we watch helplessly as projects we are doing fail. We can’t even do personal or home maintenance. We stop going out and meeting people because we can’t get out of the house and because we become afraid of people.
During the depression episode, we feel guilty that we aren’t reliable or strong enough to stop our tasks from failing. We feel that the world is closing in and that nothing will ever be good in our lives again, that people are angry with us, and that we are terrible, useless, worthless people.
None of the above are our fault. They are the symptoms of depression, just the same way a runny nose and sneezing are the symptoms of the flu. We can’t stop what happens by thinking differently or positively any more than you can stop your runny nose just by thinking about it. We can’t take action to fix the depression because we can’t do things, and the drugs / medications we take may or may not work.
Being depressed is traumatic.