My Bipolar Diary

The Real Stuff !!

After I was diagnosed, I wrote down all my daily thoughts and feelings for six years, from 1997-2003, while I struggled to cope with being bipolar.

It’s a journey of hope, despair, longing, annoyance, fear, winning, and sometimes just sheer tiredness. Read this if you think you are bipolar. Or if you have just been diagnosed and want to know what to expect. Or if you just want to see what someone else has gone through.

You’ll be surprised how similar the Diary is to your experience. You are not alone. Yes, the dates are old, but the problems of being bipolar don’t change, at least not until we have reliable medication to stabilise the mood swings.

My Bipolar Diary won all my earliest website awards. Even now, there is still nothing else like it on the web. Check it out!

The Diary starts here…

  1. Why I Went to a Psychiatrist in the First Place
  2. Taking Medication for the First Time
  3. Taking Medication, Take Two
  4. Stable and Reflective
  5. It’s OK to be Depressed
  6. Just When I Thought I was Stable
  7. Lives of Quiet Desperation
  8. A Day in the Life of a Manic Person
  9. Here I Start Again…again
  10. Been There, Done That, Got a T-shirt
  11. Today is the First Day of the Rest of My Life for the Next Two Weeks
  12. Life is Boring
  13. OK, Maybe Not So Boring
  14. Trying to Stay on Medication
  15. No Motivation, Alas
  16. Love is a Healer
  17. Not Enough of a Healer
  18. Tales of Far Away
  19. No Sleep is a Bad Idea
  20. Crash and Burn
  21. Running on High Octane
  22. Cycling Downhill and Trying the Brakes
  23. Cycling Uphill and Trying the Brakes
  24. Today is ALWAYS the First Day of the Rest of My Life
  25. Being Normal
  26. Relationship Problems
  27. Planning One Week Ahead
  28. Depression and Prozac
  29. Being Stable Daily
  30. Breaking Up is…Confusing to Do
  31. How Do People Live with Normal Emotions
  32. Taking On a Race Or Not
  33. Losing My Identity
  34. Do I Want to Get Better?

…and ends here.

Since this was written, I’ve become more knowledgeable about being bipolar, and about drugs, and mania, and depression episodes, and dealing with doctors. I might even be a bit wiser.

  • Depression: Symptoms and Coping
    • Includes advice for Family / Friends.
  • Mania: Symptoms and Coping
    • Includes advice for Family / Friends.
  • Drugs and Therapy and Psychiatrists, which includes:
    • About Drugs and Therapy and which to do.
    • My Experience with the drugs I have taken.
    • A healthy mechanism for dealing with Psychiatrists.
  • Family and Friends: What to do if your loved one is bipolar or has depression.
  • The Big Picture – How to organise your life around being bipolar.

Check out the other sections of my website for my most updated / recent thoughts.

2 thoughts on “My Bipolar Diary

  1. I am afraid of my thoughts and feelings 99 percent of the time. ..I think I may be just lile my mother…..BIPOLAR/MANIC DEPRESSIVE ….and that scares me more tjan anything! !!!!


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