Why Aleksei has no Antlers

‘twas the month before Christmas, And all through the land, The creatures were whispering, Isn’t it grand. Santa’s looking, to pull on his sleigh, New animals, cos reindeer are so passé. Besides, traditional creatures of yore, Aren’t fast enough To avoid planes or the stray bullet or four. What we need are creatures who Are…

What Does the Future Hold for Me?

Ok, so you don’t really know what the future will be like. Neither do I. And it bothered me like hell and was really getting me down. But I read an extract from a book which says our biggest problem is not what we cannot do, but the attitude of helplessness which our circumstances cause…

Setting Goals

5 Jan 03 – Diary ‘Tis the time to make New Year’s resolutions. But what happens if your life is sufficiently unstable that predicting what will happen in the next two weeks is impossible. What good are resolutions then? Why bother to make them. This sounds trivial, but it isn’t. One of the biggest problems…

Bipolar Disorder and Sports

Here’s a good one for sports fans. Every so often I read about an athlete who has been disqualified from a game or race. Sometimes the athlete has been taking a banned substance, and sometimes they claim that they have taken an innocent drug that mimics a banned substance. I read about it, but what…

About Suicide

Yes, I’ve tried suicide. A number of times and failed each time. Which mostly means that I’m not very good at trying to kill myself. Ok, so that’s a bit of macabre humour, but suicide is generally a taboo subject and I’m scared of it, so I thought I’d try to lighten up the mood.…

The Daily Energy It Takes to be Normal

I usually look and act completely normal in my hypomanic or depressed moods (well, almost completely). However, it takes a lot of effort to do so. Since I cycle rapidly and have no real periods of ‘normality’, I usually have to spend about ten to twenty percent of my energy to act normally. I had…