Why Aleksei has no Antlers

WP_000042 Why Alesei Has No Antlers

‘twas the month before Christmas,
And all through the land,
The creatures were whispering,
Isn’t it grand.
Santa’s looking, to pull on his sleigh,
New animals, cos reindeer are so passé.
Besides, traditional creatures of yore,
Aren’t fast enough
To avoid planes or the stray bullet or four.
What we need are creatures who
Are black like the night,
Swift on their feet, and no noses of light.
And if on the naughty list your name should appear,
A flash of sharp fangs, and on your ass there will be,
A small reminder that 2013 better be a good year.
The kiddos all decided to give it a go,
We are fast and we’ll help Santa with his ho ho ho,
Delivering presents and the occasional nip
To the deserving on Christmas Eve’s midnight trip.
So last Friday they made a quick trip to the North Pole –
Santa said yes, gladly, you’ll all fit the role,
And your coats are perfect for high altitude cold.
But there’s one little problem we have with the big boy,
He has to take off that little jingly toy
On his tail because, you know, we are going stealth.
But Aleksei stood firm, that toy is my wealth.
Given to me by my very own boy.
I’ll not part with it, not even for this ride
I’ll stay home on Christmas Eve, and lay down beside
Him and be petted, my head in his lap
And keep him safe while you two wander the sky.
So they left the North Pole,
Kiska and Devka with tokens of their upcoming flight.
Aleksei with none, but still his tail stood tall,
To know that he got his human and his human had him,
To snuggle all night, the best Christmas present of all.


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I hate it when people say that bipolar people tend to be creative and gifted, and well, special. We aren’t – we’re just people, each with our own strengths and flaws, just like everyone else. Treating us as special means treating us as less than human. Certainly different from everyone else. I’d rather be embedded in the rich tapestry that consists of everybody’s joys and wonders and annoyances and strengths. It’s beautiful there.

That said, poetry is something that only exists for me when I am manic – which I find really annoying on principle. I’ve lost the capability to write the good stuff ever since I’ve been managing my mania. All I’ve got left is some scraps like above. I find this a perfectly acceptable trade off – I’d rather be stable and walking happy dogs in the park every day, than having mood swings and writing poetry while the dogs get stuck at home for two or three weeks. Real life is better.

Thirty Symptoms of Mania

When I start to feel this way I describe below, or when these symptoms show up, I know that I am either already manic or in the early stages of becoming manic. Hypomania is simply a milder version of mania – but it is still enough to cause problems.

The “Mania is Wonderful” Signs

1. I feel great!

My energy level rises and anything I want to do, I just do. I feel confident about my decisions. Nothing is problematic – I can fix anything. I feel good about myself and I’m happy. I have the best of all possible lives.

This is like the feeling you get when you’ve just successfully pulled off a great project. Except it stays with us all the time. And it’s wonderful – if I could have this feeling all the time, I would.

Continue reading Thirty Symptoms of Mania

Graphic Representation of Manic Symptoms

The diagram below shows at a glance the twenty eight symptoms of mania that I experience and also how they are interlinked. It’s a quick reference, if you will.

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Chart with mania symptoms

Alternatively, you can go to the itemised list of symptoms that I have when I am hypomanic or manic, which describes the symptoms in detail.

Things that might Cause or Trigger Manic Eposodes

I am of the opinion that generally the mood swings happen on their own, following a pattern or cycle based on your body’s internal rhythms.

I also think that these cycles is fairly resistant to external events or triggers. So the stuff happening in your life is generally not the cause for your mood swings. Rather your mood swings are what are causing your life to go wonky.

Here’s the fine print though. Continue reading Things that might Cause or Trigger Manic Eposodes

Knowing When You are Becoming Manic

In order to manage being bipolar, you have to be able to monitor your moods. Of course that is easier said than done. After all, what does monitoring mean? What do you look for?

Let’s just start with mania. Here’s how to know if you are becoming manic. Continue reading Knowing When You are Becoming Manic

Dealing with this manic episode

One of life’s little benefits is that you can use your mania to control your mania.

Here’s why. With mania, you tend to have high productivity and lots of manic energy. It turns out that you can channel some of the excess energy to monitor how you are feeling and what you are doing.

And then, armed with this information, you can then use your energy / productivity to take action to calm yourself down and reduce your mania. Continue reading Dealing with this manic episode

If You are Very Manic

If you are very manic, you MUST seek assistance from a psychiatrist.

There are no choices in this matter. Your decision making capabilities will be substantially impaired, even if you don’t think so, and even if you think you are functioning normally. You will not be able to sort this out on your own.

If you are very manic you will be doing some or all of the following: Continue reading If You are Very Manic