Resistance to Drugs

I become resistant toany mood stabilising medicationthat I take daily Here's the typical scenario. I start a new medication, one that says it takes 1-2 weeks to take effect. I start getting a noticeable response to the drugs within hours - sometimes in less than one hour. So that's good. But then the drug stops... Continue Reading →

Drugs, Quality of Life, and Dilemmas

I'm still kinda grumpy about not being able to take the Ketamine. Here's why. I'm not disagreeing with my doctors - their points on why they aren't keen on my taking it are very good. Ketamine apparently can push up blood pressure and is associated with tacychardia (rapid heart rate). And long term heavy use... Continue Reading →

Ketamine currently Good, but Useless.

So. The Ketamine works very well as an antidepressant for me so far. But my doctors and psychiatrists are unwilling prescribe it to me because it has not been approved for depression, and in fact its ability as an antidepressant is so far from its approved use as an anesthetic that they are not even keen to take a... Continue Reading →

Jumping Through Hoops / Ketamine

Still trying to get a medically supervised test of Ketamine scheduled. Yeah, in a hospital and all that. Hopefully this will happen in the next two weeks. Meanwhile I have... (A) Got Blood Tests done. My blood sugar is normal, and my lipid profile is ok and in the safe regions, although my LDL levels are... Continue Reading →

Ketamine and Being High

Ok, the damned stuff is used as a recreational drug too. What is the high like? Well, it didn't seem very impressive to me. Ketamine does create the dissociative state that you will read about. It is hard to describe - my best description is that it is like standing about 6 inches outside your... Continue Reading →

Ketamine is Complicated

Here's an update about Ketamine. The good news is that the Ketamine works brilliantly to pull me out of depression - it happens within about an hour if I take the Ketamine in injectable form. The bad news is that my doctor (general practitioner / GP, not psychiatrist) believes that the Ketamine dose I took... Continue Reading →


Every time I try a new drug and it goes well the first day or two, everyone around me goes "Yay!! - Everything will be hunky dory now. You're cured!! Stride into the future and don't look back!!!" And I say "Well, maybe." "Be positive!" they say. "Why are you always so pessimistic?" Guess whose... Continue Reading →

Depression and taking Ketamine

I tried Ketamine yesterday. I had been in a depression episode that lasted through all of September, which is a very long episode for me. This is problematical, because while many of the antidepressants have some effect in preventing me from getting depressed, none work to actually get me out of depression. So there I... Continue Reading →

Tegretol: Effects and Side Effects

Tegretol pulls me down from mania quickly I tried taking Tegretol (carbamazepine) as an antimanic and as a mood stabiliser. Because of my general resistance to drugs I do not take it daily. However, if I am feeling manic enough that I do not think I can manage using just behaviour adjustments, I take Tegretol, and... Continue Reading →

Do the Drugs Work?

It takes us a while to get past the idea that taking drugs somehow makes us weak, or less than in proper control of our lives. But eventually we reluctantly start to take them, and not unreasonably, we expect that the drugs will make us better. Wrong. Well, they do make us better. Sort of.... Continue Reading →

Prozac: Effects and Side Effects

My psychiatrist did not want to give me any antidepressants because of the possibility that they could trigger a full manic episode. So far I have had only hypomanic episodes and only once came close to being manic. But once was enough. That episode sufficiently terrified me that I was willing to go along with... Continue Reading →

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